Saturday, April 21, 2012

getting old.

Do you ever think about dying? I always wonder when I'll die, how it will happen...I always thought it would be super ironic to die getting hit by an ambulance. HA watch it happen, people, watch it happen.

I was reading Psalm 71 the other day and keep coming back to read it. The title is "Forsake Me Not When My Strength Is Spent" (I'm using ESV). The writer is just asking God, "Hey God, don't just leave me out to dry once I'm old. Stay here with me just like you've done for the past __ years." Throughout the passage he keeps saying things that talk about his lifelong walk with God:

v. 3: "Be to me a rock of refuge, to which I may continually come..."
v. 5-6 "For you, O LORD, are my hope, my trust, O LORD, from my youth, upon you have I leaned from before my birth; you are he who took me from my mother's womb. My praise is continually of you."
v.8 "My  mouth is filled with your praise, and with your glory all the day."


You get the picture, there's a ton more.

The part that really gets me though is verses 17-18. It says, "O God, from my youth you have taught me, and I still proclaim your wondrous deeds. So even to old age and gray hairs, O God, don't forsake me, until I proclaim your might to another generation, your power to all those to come."

"Even when I'm old, God, don't forsake me, so I can tell of your name to another generation."  He doesn't want God to leave him when he's an old fart, but not because he's afraid of dying. It's because he wants to keep proclaiming God's name.

Wow. That is PURPOSE. That is LIFE. When I'm old and falling apart, I want my prayer to be that God continues to let me live solely for the purpose of making his name known. But that doesn't start when I'm old. That starts now. I said I always wonder about how and when I'll die. Well if that ambulance hits me tomorrow I'd better be praying NOW that God is using me to make him known!!

Our purpose is to keep chuggin along for God, even when we're old, even when we're young. THAT is life.


Monday, April 16, 2012

father.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K3UJIzZpiA8

"You restore the broken hearted
You bring freedom to the captive
For one and all
Forever this means love"

OBSESSED with this song lately..enjoy!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

i just love him.

Right now I'm supposed to be researching the city of Barcelona...oh well, Barcelona can wait.

So lately I've been noticing how much I complain. All. The. Time. I complain about school, how much homework I have, how cold it is, how tired I am, how stressed I am, how lazy I am, how much I complain...ohhh the irony. I don't even realize I'm doing it until after the fact and then I'm like, Oh...yeahhh I'm complaining.

This past weekend when I was home for Easter, I got to see my friend Lauren. We were just walking to the car or something and she says, "Oh I just love Jesus." I kind of looked at her and smiled. She goes, "Sorry Chesney (her roommate) is rubbing off on me and I say that like every 3 minutes, but it's true. I just love him."

!!!

That's such a simple thing to say:  "I love Jesus." But instead I find things to COMPLAIN about...why is that? You could say that it's because it's so easy to forget about God in the moment and just complain, which is true. You could say that in our society it's so common to complain that it's not even a big deal anymore, just part of normal conversation. But more than that, I think it's a heart issue.

Why do I complain? It's because I'm not satisfied with something in the moment. When Lauren said that over break, it just made me think--people should be hearing "I love Jesus" from my mouth more than they should be hearing complaints. So lately I've been trying to say "I just love Jesus" when I catch myself complaining. A lot of the time "and that's all that really matters" is added onto it. And it's TRUE!! Does it really matter that I have 3 tests this week? Does it really matter that the weather is bipolar and I don't like it? Nope. All that matters is that I love Jesus and what I do with that.

Being able to say that helps me refocus too...I find myself thanking God for the situation I'm in rather than complaining about it. Example: this week is insane with tests, essays, speeches etc. I was griping about it but then realized I have SO much to be thankful for--let's talk about the fact that having this homework means that I'm getting a top notch education that billions of others will never get.

Here's my challenge to you: if you love Jesus, let the world know. Let those words flow from your mouth and BE THANKFUL!! I hope you all hold me to this too!